Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

Sometimes, and just some times, I can't stomach surprises (because I love planning):

Take Bali for instance - I've planned it 3 months back. I've booked and bought everything and anything. You named it (except getting a new pair of bikinis). But when a pretty good job interview comes from no where and breaks my original Bali itinerary, my toleration level went to its lowest of low. You will definitely know when I am low on toleration: my migrain starts, I can't sleep 'til 4am. While the problem is already solved, I'm still agitated because I loved the original plan. "I LOVE MY ORIGINAL PLAN". I've changed the flight details and able to attend the interview, but I still tak boleh tahan why things have to be the way it is.....

But you see, I don't learn. Again, I've ALREADY planned for the whole PBIM in November. Yes, even booked the hotel. But why (I asked myself to stop!)? Though I KNOW that some 'surprise, surprise' will come knocking and breaking the Penang's itinerary, just like it did on this Bali trip, I still insist in booking the hotel early. WHY AM I SOO STUBBORN and still planning on 'planning'? Because in many ways, I do believe I suffer a mild form of OCD:

I cannot help but to rearrange my apartment's sofa: realigned it parallel to the cupboard. Each sofa must have 2 pillows before I can sleep soundly. The hangers in the drying-line must face the same side. My wardrobe is colour coded. All my Ph.D. stuffs on computer are all meticulously foldered and sub-foldered. But you can't say I am entirely OCD too: My mags/books/files are strewn all over the cabinet and room, my clothes are simply hanged although colour-coded, my fridge has something rotten in it 'cause I can smell it, my bags are recklessly placed around, and I think I am having a panic attack now cause I can't find my liquid paper!

But pray pray pray that this whole Bali trip is gonna work out! Jo, I can't wait for you to come to KL prior to that...!

Sorry for the rantings.

Ivy-out!!

Hiatus

As my relationship takes a hiatus, I got on track quickly with my career. It was more like a break, and I asked for it: He wasn't PERFORMING. Yah. Monetory-wise. And it was bad timing for him and I too. I went into a quick realisation that with or without him didn't matter at all: I prefer 'without'. I lost myself while with him. No regrets on my decision for the break. I am back to the real me again. With him, I was always always always solemn.

And within a week, I was back on track. REAL QUICK. I finished my whole thesis in 2 weeks! All 5 chapters with references, 130 pages, 1.5 spacing for the draft to reduce paper wastage and the environment (do I actually give a damn!?). So, the real thesis with double spacing plus all the rubbish extras i.e. acknowledgement, appendices, etc. will make my thesis about 200 pages. Which will make my Prof. a very unhappy man as he expects the Harvard rule of any thesis exceeding 150 pages as "sure-a-lot-rubbish and redundancies". It's really up to my examiners now to proofread and criticise my work which could take up to 6 months!!! Wosrt still, my semester fees depends on their diligence in reading my work. As of now, though I have completed EVERYTHING - as long as they don't finish criticising my thesis, I am stuck with paying my semester fees of RM2000!!!

Hiatus on my Ph.D., my relationship: I feel relief nowadays, though I do miss the whole lovey-dovey parts of boyfriend-girlfriend activities and I do miss my Ph.D.-work stress! Cause stress can be quite euphoric for me.

With nothing on my mind, I prepared myself for the interview with Petronas. They wanted a scientist. Let me tell you, I was more excited than nervous! I was working out my Law Of Attraction and praying hard. The interview toook damnit - 2 hours!! Which is good, cause the likeliness of them rejecting an applicant after interviewing him/her and wasting 2 hours of their time is LOW. That's just my bloody hypotheses on HRM. I really really hope I get it. Pls Pls Pls. The interview went very well (again, to my opinion. So, respect it). If I get this job, I'll be sent to Torino, Italy to learn more about surfactant and lubricant sciences (which is quite pesticide related)! I wanna see the Shroud of Turin, but is it kept there?.

I know this is childish. But after the interview, I took advantage of the electronic pass to access KLCC's Tower 1. I went to all the lifts to several floors....then I went to almost the highest point that I dare to reach with my pass. From the 43rd floor, the view was amazing! I think the security would have gotten a shot of me from their CCTV going up and down the lift for no apparent reason. Hope it will not lead to a mugshot! The only complain which I had was the haze, which clouded the beauty of KL City. Another set-back: I had no camera.

I will be in Ipoh from today til Monday. Again, it's regarding my health...and my mum's grumbling. Nothing big, just AGE catching up on me. *wink* "Doctor, I'll pay you lots, just remove the problem." This time more of my money flying off again cause it's a specialist! How to save $$$ arr?